Misdiagnosed :(:

In October of 2012, I was diagnosed Bi-Polar with Borderline Personality

Borderline Personality Disorder

Disorder, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Extreme Anxiety with Agoraphobia. Before these diagnosis I was diagnosed with only depression and anxiety. Even though depression and anxiety are parts of the Bipolar diagnosis it is not the same. I have gone years with being misdiagnosed.
When I found out I had these mental illnesses it was actually a big relief. My emotions, thoughts and feelings over the years finally made sense. It was like a major piece of my puzzle had been found and put into place.
I reflect on my past now and everything is starting to make sense, also the severity of my misdiagnosis is also coming together. It must have been so hard on my family and friends to deal with my extreme ups and downs. I think about my children when I think about how these diagnoses contributed to my life. The pain they must have gone through watching my different moods, not knowing if mommy was going to be nice or mean, speaking calmly or yelling on the top of her lungs.

Bipolar

I look back and now realize what a mess I really was. I want to apologize for any harm or hurts I have caused you. I am now on medications that are helping me balance out my illnesses. I am so thankful that the Lord has revealed to me the truth and now I can accept my diagnosis and try to move forward. I am slowly learning what each of theses illnesses are and how and what impacts they have on my day to day life. I am taking baby steps in the right direction now that I know that what and how I feel is not my fault, that there has been something wrong all of these years. If I have hurt you in any way I am very sorry and please take the time to understand these illnesses so that we may understand one another better. I live by faith one day at a time, and for right now, that's enough for me. God Bless.
~Renee