Pain

Severe depression, overwhelming.
When will it go away or is it here to stay?
I want to feel normal, to be happy.
Extreme anxiety.
Is it just in my head?
Am I crazy?
What is mental illness?
I don't want it. I did not ask for this.
I just want to have a normal healthy whole life.
I want to share my life with someone that loves me for me.
Even with all this junk that is wrong with me.
I am happy sometimes.
Some days are better than others.
Mental and physical pain.
Suffer.
Deeply.